Three poems by Michael W. Thomas

 

 

Out past the end of the trees…

 

Out past the end of the trees
is white ground neither snow nor mist
with more trees flecked onto
the middle distance
to make small hills
and a wood where a collared dove
looks after the silence

staring at all of that
walking a way towards it
I can be what I am
I can be nothing or something or more
I can be say a quiver of air
behind a comfort-store
at a service station
off a roundabout
where a road cuts through the country

I can blow briefly
about a short meadow
whose lie of grass is filled
with whispers of a blue-smoke town nearby
whose birds find twigs
that can barely allow them
and face away
to their pick of unearthly roads

one breath later
wings up
they break the low haze
which doesn’t feel them
and wouldn’t say if it did.

 

 

The Blue House
(Locquirec Harbour, Brittany)

 

The light beneath the door
is the only noise she makes
as she draws the curtains
right over left
cancelling the sinister
so she will not make a slovenly death.

She had a brother once
loud upon the mornings
who for a season
was mistook for a sailor
found himself on recurrent watches
with only the frets of Archangel to eat.

When he was home
he would terrify their father’s books
rearrange them by maybe breadth of spine
or double-vowels in titles
bless the shelves thus discomfited
then hitch to his lady in Morlaix.

Sometimes brother and sister
would walk the harbour wall
out and back as the day wore through gull-crow
delivery vans   early shell-hunts
ice-cream altercations   hometime brushdowns
evening canopies jigging the sun.

The summer before their mother died
he painted the shutters blue –
a bout of intent and skilfulness that shocked even him
and took in also the tresses of the yard
the gate that ever after
denied the wind the pleasure of a screech.

She misses him
she has nothing
he had nothing but could at least
rub his hands at his boisterousness
whenever the world
opened him the odd nook or two.                                                                                                                

As evening finds its first sleep
before she is left curtain under right
she stands out front
looking up at the house
feeling the blue like a hug
a prayer that fights for an answer.

Locals blow goodnights about her
now and then she replies
so one corner of the harbour-way
is a thrill of small sound
patient enough for the moment
when it must give back the night.
 

 

Bikes
July 1969.  For Mike Evans, 1953-2014

 

We stood smack in the middle of summer,
felt the minutes, hours, days flow down our skin.
A crazy bunch of miles above, some man
was set to trampoline about the moon
and get himself misheard by history.
The sun was our manor.  We swung our bikes
along its beams, its paths and cut-throughs, out
across the molten ways of housing schemes,
where peace begged for a chance from open doors
and windows sang of pinball wizardry.
No freedom for the man up on the moon,
no change of gear or bush-grassed gulley.  He
was parked before the world, a black-white moth
netted with one wing twitching.  We roared on.
He jumped stiff-legged, a toddler testing beds.
We slicked our tyres with ancient oil.  He coped
as best he could with ice-white silence, left
a flag to be unloved by July breeze.

Did we feel autumn in our bones as we
rode home, hear time complaining at the snow?
Course not: we’d been bowling over fire,
chasing sun-spots like rooks.  Our transmissions
were simple as a breath, joy to muscle
to speed to joy to muscle—the right stuff.
Meanwhile, beyond the day, the moon man tried
to get back up a ladder as unsound
as those our dads ascended, bulb in hand,
mithering of expense and foreign tat,
while far below our mothers gripped the rungs
and tuned their minds’ dial elsewhere, to their times
of joy, of speed and fire, endless sun.

 

Michael W. Thomas

 

Biography

Michael W. Thomas’s novels include The Mercury Annual and  Pilgrims at the White Horizon. His poetry collections include Port Winston Mulberry (Littlejohn and Bray, 2009), Batman’s Hill, South Staffs (Flipped Eye, 2013), The Girl From Midfoxfields (Black Pear, 2014) and Come to Pass (Oversteps, 2015).  He has recorded two CDs of poetry and music, Seventeen Poems and a Bit of A Song and Angels in the Telegraph Room. His work has appeared in  The Antioch Review, Critical Survey, The Explicator, Irish Studies Review, The London Magazine, Magazine Six (US), Pennine Platform and Stand Magazine; and he reviews regularly for the Times Literary Supplement. 

In 2015, his novella, ‘Esp’, was shortlisted for the UK Novella Award.  He is currently working on Nowherian, the  memoir of a Grenadian traveller. His latest poetry collection, Early and Late, is appearing in 2018, together with The Portswick Imp: Collected Stories, 2001-2016 

Bikes won the Cheltenham Buzzwords competition in 2015. 


@thomasmichaelw
 
 swansreport.blogspot.co.uk

Banner image: Morning mist over snow-covered fields, Pauline Eccles.

 

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Rainbow Friday by Jonathan Humble

 

 

I once knew this girl. Small like a mouse she was … big eyes. And colourful ribbons; dancing kite ribbons in the playground. Red one day, blue the next and rainbow ribbons Friday. Didn’t say anything in the uniform rules about it; no mention of ribbons. Nothing I can remember about how far the socks must be up the shin. She always wore one half-mast. Always. I wondered how she managed it. Willpower, my Mam said.

Our family lived down a terraced street not that far from the school. The houses had seen better days; a time in the past when the port was thriving. Now, years of decline showed in the rows of back to backs; in cracked roof tiles, sagging guttering, and layers of industrial grime that clung to the walls. As children we played games in the lanes that bound these rows together, and loved home for what it was.

This kid’s family had moved in at the end house, the biggest on our terrace. It dominated the street and had been empty for as long as I could remember. I was fascinated by it. Large and old and different, with funny-patterned brickwork. I believed I could see people moving around inside … shadows from its past that couldn’t quite let go; memories from a more prosperous and happy time, perhaps. They must be sad, I thought, at the state it was in.

For a while, the shadows disappeared to be replaced by a hairy grey cat that stared back at you from an attic window.

‘My cat Sacky,’ she said, ‘and nobody else’s, see!’

I wasn’t arguing. The rest of the back lane mafia, through experience or word of mouth, had got the message pretty quickly as well. They were wary in the presence of the scruffy new kid with the ribbons. There was a strangeness. The accepted rules were not being followed. There was no desire to conform or join in. She stood apart from the rest of us, unaffected by her isolation. A confidence was evident that was out of proportion with her size.

I wasn’t arguing, but I was curious.

The invitation came a month later, most unexpectedly, one green ribbon day in spring while I was walking back from school at the end of an awful afternoon. One moment I’m alone, the next I’m aware of mousy hair, ribbons, and a face with a question in it somewhere around my shoulder.

‘Do you like cats?’ the face asked.

They made me nervous.

‘You’d like Sacky. She’s dead friendly. She was a stray, but she’s got a home now. We’ve nearly had her a year … she just likes us. Well, she likes me. And she really likes this place. Must be the mice.’

We stopped outside the big house.

‘I’m having a party for Sacky. Sandwiches in our front room. You can come if you like.’ The big house stood before me, all brickwork and promise, with Sacky the cat, fat, grey and hairy, staring down. ‘See you tomorrow.’

There was a flash of green as she turned and skipped up the path in the front yard, disappearing into the depths of the house. The door closed behind her, leaving me to stare at the coloured glass and cracked paint and funny brickwork.

The next day I left for school and met up with the back lane mafia as usual. We made our way noisily through the streets, dribbling discarded cans round lampposts, sticks cleaving the air in imaginary combat. Our conversations were never mundane; which animals saw best in the dark and how you might survive in a jungle with only a penknife. We’d compare all manner of institutions and people; various football teams, television programmes, our parents and our teachers. This particular morning it happened to be prominent neighbours. The arguments and shouting at the end house were discussed; incidents involving the family were described and embellished. I didn’t join in but listened uneasily and then lagged behind, a feeling of gloom descending as I walked along.

The morning dragged. My teacher, who was usually alright, happened to be in a foul mood and no one seemed to be able to do anything that pleased him. Even the swotty kids weren’t putting in enough effort. As I worked at my topic writing, I noticed that the girl’s pen had leaked and she’d made a dreadful mess of her writing. She had to go out to the front of the classroom.

‘How am I going to read this?’ he asked, holding up her book in evidence. ‘This isn’t the standard of presentation we expect from top juniors, is it? If you spent a little more time concentrating, dear, rather than staring out of the window, we’d see an improvement in your work. Don’t you agree? Isn’t that true?’

And then it happened. Without a trace of emotion, she wet the floor where she stood.

A confused silence from the rest of us was punctuated only by the occasional splashing of urine on tiles. We all stared at the small, motionless kid who in turn fixed her eyes unflickeringly on the open-mouthed adult.

Fazed as he was, he managed a ‘Well, Miss Crompton, I don’t think that was called for,’ before suggesting she sort herself out in the girls’ toilets. She didn’t move, but continued to stare up at him until a tear trickled unopposed down her cheek and onto a grimy collar. I watched her standing there and felt anger well up inside. But I said and did nothing.

Eventually the secretary was sent for, who appeared minutes later with the head teacher. They guided the girl out of the classroom. The event had the effect of subduing everyone for the rest of the day. I didn’t hear anyone laughing about it as I half expected. There was an instinctive understanding that the strangeness of this girl was rooted in problems of which we could only guess.

I didn’t see her again for the rest of the week. When she did come back, she sat next to me in class. Again I was invited to tea. It would be on Friday she said. I didn’t say anything … I just nodded.

Down our street, as the week progressed, the ‘goings on’ at the end house continued. The details were discussed the following morning as might be expected, but I walked away. I didn’t want to know. It was rainbow ribbon day; Sacky’s birthday. Nothing else should get in the way.

At school I searched for the girl, but there wasn’t a sign of her in the playground. She wasn’t in the classroom either and I sat at my desk, quiet and alone.

Come dinnertime, there were the usual gatherings and games, discussions and pressures; the future trying out its lungs after a morning’s restraint, grabbing and pulling and limbs not quite mastered.

Where was she?

I wanted to talk, to make sure it was still alright, to look forward to whatever sandwiches would be on offer at the end house. I wanted to explore the secrets of Sacky’s new home and to be a friend. It all felt so urgent. I wasn’t sure why.

‘Hello. They’ve finished with me now. Are you coming?’

Beneath the multi-coloured ribbon and mousy hair was the face with the question in it; smiling, insistent. She’d appeared out of nowhere, her eyes persuading me to follow. We walked away from the noise and out of the yard at the back of school.

‘Where are we going?’ I asked pathetically.

‘For sandwiches,’ she said, and we went on our way through the high street, two kids out of school when they should have been in it. I looked in disbelief at my reflection in shop windows, my hand grasped as it was by this diminutive, boldly striding anarchist, a rainbow floating in her wake.

‘But we’ve got RE,’ I said, my hand falling free and the ribbons coming to rest.

‘This is more important. Come on, Sacky’s waiting.’

And with that she was away again, leaving me to watch, standing outside the Co-op on the corner of our street. Ordinary people continued with their shopping whereas I struggled with weightier matters. There was the school, with the teachers turning the place upside down in order to find us. There was the girl, part way down the street, offering friendship and sandwiches. Going back was out of the question. The boundaries were breached and I’d have to wait until the ebb and flow of children at home time carried me back through those yard gates again.

She brought out a key.

‘There’s no lights,’ she said, ‘but it doesn’t matter.’

The front door closed behind us. Tall and narrow, the hallway was cold, made more so by the echo of our footsteps on an old tiled floor. ‘This way,’ she said and we carried on through the gloom of a clearly empty and abandoned house.

‘Where are the carpets?’ I asked.

‘They’ve been removed. The removers have removed them,’ she said bouncing through what I assumed had been a living room. I stood at its centre and looked around me while the girl, with great purpose, went into the kitchen. Even in the light offered by the smallish window, the wallpaper was obviously well acquainted with the walls they covered. The floorboards, mottled and damp, made you wonder what manner of creature lurked beneath them.

I stood and shivered and thought once more of the shadows I used to imagine here.

The girl reappeared, smiling, holding a plate of hacked up sandwiches, jam oozing. ‘Front room’s cold. Let’s go up to my room.’

We climbed up a flight of stairs to a high place and found a door painted blue, as roughly as the sandwiches had been cut.

‘I’ve finished it now,’ she said and opened the door, allowing a flood of colour to rush over me, for inside was a rainbow. Reds and yellows, blues and greens and purples and every colour worth having, enveloping walls and woodwork. Scenes of summer surrounded us, a mixture of childish gaiety and wild imagination; pictures of butterflies, birds, flowers, and fluffy clouds. A sun, painted on one wall, radiated diverging orange rays from one corner, and real light poured through the window to make it a truly magical place; glowing, warm and friendly.

She walked over to a cupboard set in the wall, the doors of which, adorned with all manner of strange and wonderful flowers, were ajar. Opening it fully, she brought out a tiny bundle of writhing grey fluff, sightless and helpless, and placed it in my hands. I looked down and marvelled at its vulnerability. Revealed in the space behind the door was Sacky, serene in motherhood on a plaid blanket, three other bundles nestled in around her, nuzzling and competing for position.

‘Happy birthday Sacky,’ she said as we knelt and shared out the sandwiches.

The people came with my head teacher at around midday. Apparently things had been wrapped up by morning playtime at school and so the way was now clear for the final removal. My Mam tried to explain about the eviction and how the girl would probably have a better chance now that the authorities were looking after her, but I’m not sure that either of us were convinced. As she got into the car, the ribbons resting on her shoulders, the girl suddenly looked out at me, her face urgent and questioning: ‘Look after Sacky for me …?’

And then she was gone, leaving me and my Mam standing outside the house with the cracked paint, the funny brickwork and the grey cat staring down from the attic window.

 

 

Biography

Jonathan Humble is a teacher in Cumbria. His poetry has appeared in a number of publications, including Big Issue In The North, Ink Sweat & Tears, Obsessed With Pipework, Curlew Calling, Zoomorphic, Milestones Anthology, Riggwelter, Amaryllis, Atrium, Fairacre Press and on BBC Radio. His short stories and poems for children have been published in The Caterpillar and Stew Magazine. A collection of his light poetry called My Camel’s Name Is Brian has been published by TMB Books.

http://www.northernjim.wordpress.com

 

Banner image: Back alley, Adeline Street, Goole, by Mick Garratt

 

Editor’s note: We like to keep things local, as you know, but occasionally we are sent work so wonderful, it would be rude to turn it down. Jonathan Humble’s Rainbow Friday is regional writing at its best, and we hope you enjoyed it!